Hero I Want to Be

I was thinking yesterday of how cool it’d be to begin school in Europe. Get enough money hear and covert to pounds in U.K. Get a small, decent apartment and an acting school. I’d be in front of a whole new audience and I’d like to have the new start feel.

Problems here would be telling my family. They’d refuse to let me leave, or think I’m throwing myself around, trying out for things I’ll never succeed with. You never know unless you try. It surely is a big leap, Adjusting would be difficult, but that’s why life is about. Well, a part of life.

I’d return back once I’ve met myself and feel confident and have gotten a good career jump, The joy I’d share with everyone I know. I’d be willing to travel more and support the places in need and go day by day changing lives. Superman died long ago, but if he was still alive, he’d want us to be heroes. We don’t need super powers to save the world, you just need a good heart.

Melting Ice

I spoke with a girl in drama class today about her future plans and current problems. I’ve learned a great amount. I remember back in 8th grade I’d think kids are assholes, ignorant, stubborn and selfish. Maybe they were back then, even I was to think such a way, but now things have changed.

Everyone is stressed, sometimes in tears. They’re afraid more than ever realizing this is it, the final year before we all move on to lead undirected lives. Last time to see each other, the hallways, the lockers, the drama, the teenage years. If my arms were big enough I’d give a hug we all need, a hug I deserve myself.

My plans at the moment are too support as many people I can. Know they have support behind them wherever they go. I want to help them and hope they find themselves after high school. The principle mentioned never to leave anyone behind, especially in after high school. His words hit me because he’s right, nobody wants to be forgotten.

To Marry a Girl

What could be a reason you’d have to marry a girl in grade 12? This question was asked in English today as well and I really had nothing on my page so I was put on the moment. My response sorta went like this.

“Girls in general are really fragile and I’m guessing failing relationships make the vulnerable of self-harm. They’d be seeking for a true love, and it’d be me who’d come for her support. It’d kill me to see her in pain and I’d show her what it really feels to be loved, I’d give away my dreams to save her from breaking apart.”

The class was a bit in awe. As of right now, my love are for my dreams, but if I found love, it’d be a dream come true. It would be nice to have both, but really, those are the two things hard to come by. As of now I work with dreams, if love comes around, I’ll have to see what happens.

Misuse of the Word "Rape"

In English class today we discussed the term “rape” used in unnecessary ways. For example, my school won a basketball game against another school, the players would go on saying “We totally raped that school.” Now, rape means to destroy something if you looked in the dictionary. Although, that would have to be used for example, the companies raped the forest by cutting down the trees. Now when you apply that term against a team, it does coat on more sexually if you know what I mean. I don’t recall if the teacher wanted us to use the term, probably does, but I liked one students response. “It’s sexy when girls say it, wrong when the boys do.” Could be a hidden fantasy, I don’t want to imagine.

Music in Head and Dreams

I woke up this morning to a Bon Iver track playing in my head, “Blindsided” I was brushing my teeth and right away I knew the lyrics by heart. I sang to myself, and I heard the actual song in my head for a long time. I was really tired, and I kept making myself fall asleep. This occurs a lot to me with different songs and it’s interesting, I’d really like to know why it happens. If I were to guess, I’d say the lyrics really get embedded in your head and it connects with the dreams. The dreams connect with life, and present obstacles in an abstract formation where you work to fix the errors. Just my opinion though…

iPhone 4S Better than Blackberry

A lot of people tell Blackberry is better than an Iphone, and others say it the other way around. Me personally drool for the iPhone. It’s way better, especially when you’re in class because the clicking sound when texting is extremely loud. I’ve seen more Blackberry’s being taken away by teacher than iPhone. My close friend has an iPhone and he texts constantly without getting caught. The touch screen works like magic in a classroom. The only thing you’d have to avoid is the light hitting your face during a lecture or powerpoint. With the lights out, teacher will figure it out. You’re either starring at Jesus, or you have a cellphone.

Misfit Powers, (Existing, and my own)

If I was a character in Misfits, the power I’d like Simon’s power, Precognition, because it would be helpful before I place myself in destructive situations. More often I find myself in a trap that I’ve fallen into and I won’t be leaving without struggle and pain. Have the power will allow me to think twice of my actions, therefore, saving me the embarrassment, or even larger, my life.

I remember what I did to prove my trust for a girl once. I promised her I’d pull the fire alarm on Halloween, and I did so. On the good part, I didn’t get caught, on the bad side, she forgot what I’d said so it was pointless. With the power, I could’ve saved my trouble two ways. I could’ve seen if I were to get caught or not, also if she’d remember. However, I need to remember not rely on the power more, I need to go with my gut instincts and hopefully learn from my mistakes.

A power of choice I want would be telepathy because it can help any many situations.

For example, I’m sitting in class and the kid next to me struggles to answer a question the teacher asked. I know the answer, so, I can tell him the answer and let him avoid the embarrassment.

I tend to observe a lot and when I see an incident occur and a conflict rising, I fear approaching the situation, but with telepathy, I can put words In the peoples mind from a distance to settle the fight. (Yes, I’m a hipster because I’m into the whole world peace thing.)

I’m a weird kid in general, I come off an unapproachable person, and I can’t communicate with everyone I see because they walk away from your looks. If I see a girl who is crying about her recent split up, I’d like to be the voice of comfort in her head to make her feel better.

I’d never use a power like telepathy for evil. My work would be too save people from traps of despair and be the assurance everyone needs in life.