Technology Killed the Teenager

Psychology class was fun. We’ve begun watching “Rain Man” starring Tom Cruise. It has something to do with our unit which is good.

The kid with autism seems to have a really good memory which is mind-blowing. Being given a telephone book and remembering them all.

Half of the class was missing, the people I adore having around were downstairs presenting themselves to an audience and preparing to perform for us.

The girl next to me has been quiet since her arrival to our school. I’ve been meaning to make some small talk, because I really don’t want her feeling alone during graduation. Like, come on, new girl comes to a new school in her final year, my guess is some personal reason, and she doesn’t know anyone, yet is expected to graduate with a class she hasn’t spoken much too.

I won’t be attending most ceremonies, but I really want her to be happy, She probably is, but she needs some memories from this school. Somebody she can say, yeah, I had a good friend in that school.

Not just some person who sat next to me and told me what assignment was due. Spend an entire year texting friends miles away really kills your ability to get attention.

Technology has destroyed the teenager.

Melting Ice

I spoke with a girl in drama class today about her future plans and current problems. I’ve learned a great amount. I remember back in 8th grade I’d think kids are assholes, ignorant, stubborn and selfish. Maybe they were back then, even I was to think such a way, but now things have changed.

Everyone is stressed, sometimes in tears. They’re afraid more than ever realizing this is it, the final year before we all move on to lead undirected lives. Last time to see each other, the hallways, the lockers, the drama, the teenage years. If my arms were big enough I’d give a hug we all need, a hug I deserve myself.

My plans at the moment are too support as many people I can. Know they have support behind them wherever they go. I want to help them and hope they find themselves after high school. The principle mentioned never to leave anyone behind, especially in after high school. His words hit me because he’s right, nobody wants to be forgotten.

Insomnia and Graduation Stresses

Waking up can get tiring. I slept at 3 last night doing irrelevant crap and my excuse was I had to work on my grad quote and write up. I wasn’t, I was trying to construct a plan on how to get  a job and leave with the fact I will get the job. My resume has been looking a bit dead so I decided to edit it up, but I didn’t edit much, because someone like me hasn’t much going on.

I usually get depressed thinking of how more teens my age have done more things to go forward, whereas I find asking for volunteer to being a big job. Here I am seeing teenagers fuss about working, get anxious during the interview, and here I am with confidence and motivation that goes to waste.

My friend told me one time that “Maybe you’re meant to do something else in life.” I keep that in mind and it really pushed me forward to believe a better future awaits, that is why, as of today I do little tasks that are filling in the spots I’ll miss growing up.

Graduation Stuff

So, from reading recent tweets and status posts of my peers from high school. The grad quote and write up is due tomorrow. I haven't even put any thought towards what I should write. I'm going to try something dumb smart if you catch my drift. Just to make everyone look like dumbasses, Einstein was good at doing so. In general though, graduation just seems nothing to me.