Hero I Want to Be

I was thinking yesterday of how cool it’d be to begin school in Europe. Get enough money hear and covert to pounds in U.K. Get a small, decent apartment and an acting school. I’d be in front of a whole new audience and I’d like to have the new start feel.

Problems here would be telling my family. They’d refuse to let me leave, or think I’m throwing myself around, trying out for things I’ll never succeed with. You never know unless you try. It surely is a big leap, Adjusting would be difficult, but that’s why life is about. Well, a part of life.

I’d return back once I’ve met myself and feel confident and have gotten a good career jump, The joy I’d share with everyone I know. I’d be willing to travel more and support the places in need and go day by day changing lives. Superman died long ago, but if he was still alive, he’d want us to be heroes. We don’t need super powers to save the world, you just need a good heart.

Melting Ice

I spoke with a girl in drama class today about her future plans and current problems. I’ve learned a great amount. I remember back in 8th grade I’d think kids are assholes, ignorant, stubborn and selfish. Maybe they were back then, even I was to think such a way, but now things have changed.

Everyone is stressed, sometimes in tears. They’re afraid more than ever realizing this is it, the final year before we all move on to lead undirected lives. Last time to see each other, the hallways, the lockers, the drama, the teenage years. If my arms were big enough I’d give a hug we all need, a hug I deserve myself.

My plans at the moment are too support as many people I can. Know they have support behind them wherever they go. I want to help them and hope they find themselves after high school. The principle mentioned never to leave anyone behind, especially in after high school. His words hit me because he’s right, nobody wants to be forgotten.

High School Changes: People & Me

Kids at my school are unique. I’ve seen them evolve into different people since the beginning. I’d have to leave it to others to judge about me. I remember the girls who I thought were preps, all of them now seem to be desperate for something serious. The jocks have matured to a level where they treat people with respect. Some more than others, the guys with a girlfriend have learned respect from the girl. I find it great to see how much one person can influence someone who I once thought would never change. I’ve seem to become more friends with people I thought I’d never be friends with. I’ve matured with all the changes that have occurred. I find myself to be a stronger person, it’s one of the things I’ll never forget in the future. Here I am, a teenage today, tomorrow I’ll be in my 60’s reflecting when I was a kid. I’ll remember everything I see now, it’s strange to know a change is occurring as I type this post. Life is so strange, Now I feel like giving someone a big hug, I feel like giving everyone a hug, boy, girl, young or old. I appreciate everything in this moment. I can’t imagine how’d it be if I was truly alone, deserted.

family arguments

A lot has been happening at home recently, arguments to be honest. My mom has been ranting on and off, and If I say something, I’m like the light to the fuse, I create this explosion which triggers off other raging thoughts. It comes to the point I’m told to shut up by everyone. I don’t like being told what to do, especially if everyone’s fine with my mom waiting her breath on being angry. No one bothers to try something or change something which pisses me off even more. I really want the best for everyone’s future, I wanna see a day my mom is proud so are the rest. How can I possibly do that when she’s always mad, fighting, and she even puts limits on how free we can be. I have things I’m working on, I have a plan, I know what I’m doing. I can’t explain it to them, because they disagree, the don’t have the same vision as me. Everyone can profit in so many ways if they took the time to listen and see things through my perspective. It’s complete shit just to listen to unnecessary crap. All that energy can be put to good somewhere else, nobody stops and thinks. It always feels like I’m the only one.

Week Outlook (Nov. 28 - Dec. 2)

I don’t usually create a list for what’s ahead for my week, but I’m going to test a theory. I’m going to say, planning out my week will make it go faster than usual. It’s a major fail now I think of it, I’m a spontaneous person, I always end up doing something out of the ordinary.

Monday, November 28, 2011

This day will be okay, My first class will be video production. My guess is my group will be completing a teacher interview. Reviewing  Psychology terms we had over the weekend as well some presentations. Programming will mostly be a new unit, or another day of doing nothing. Finally, English, we’ll be reading a short story.  After school, I need to get around to Zeller’s and handing in my resume to get a part-time job or volunteer.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Day of drama, well, the class, hopefully.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Um… This day seems like nothing, however, something is telling me I’ll expect something different.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Pep Rally! Woot! And Drama again today.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Looking forward to the weekend. FUN FUN FUN !

Monday’s are always easy to predict, the days after all depend on Monday I guess. Now I have to see if this week goes by fast. It was sure fast writing it out, living it may be a whole different story.

Graduation Stuff

So, from reading recent tweets and status posts of my peers from high school. The grad quote and write up is due tomorrow. I haven't even put any thought towards what I should write. I'm going to try something dumb smart if you catch my drift. Just to make everyone look like dumbasses, Einstein was good at doing so. In general though, graduation just seems nothing to me.

War and Happiness

People tell me that war keeps life balanced. Nobody can give the world a piece of peace. Many historic people of the past have attempted to create happiness known, and for those short moments of their lives, we did find peace. Although it’s not eternal, little bits of happiness pauses the pain the world, just the way we wish time over the weekend goes slow so we don’t have to go back to school or work. If I grow up and have enough freedom, I have made myself a promise to change one thing in the world so people can be happy. It really sickens me too see a lot of people being lonely strangers who only live their lives on a poorly constructed road. Anyone can change the world from many different ways. Just recently, I viewed some pictures of men who have burnt themselves during protests just to get a message across. The whole thing about actions speaking louder than words is true. We scream and yell at the top of our lungs so the world hears an issue, but everyone has turned away. However, if you put damage to yourself, or somebody else, the world turns around. I guess back long ago, apes, or monkeys did the same. We crowd around a fight, and we find pleasure in others getting hurt. It’s disgusting how we’ve accepted to grow a specific way. I wish I’m not alone on the passing days wishing for a day when I can walk outside and look more ahead then down on my feet. I know it’s not my fault for what happens in the world, but I am a witness to it all watching the news, we all are, and we don’t do anything. We’re just happy it wasn’t us.